Our Malay language can be quite colourful.  If you do not suffer any injury you would not know what pain is like.  So far I have used up a huge sum of our savings to keep me going and I am lucky to manage to keep my cancer under control.  I do not complain or whine about the pain I have to endure or the mental torture that's going inside me.  I look as normal as possible in front of relatives and friends/neighbors, so much so people thought I have recovered.  Everybody said I look good! Yes everybody looks good but you would not know what's "boiling" inside them.