Fight, fight, fight - struggle, struggle, struggle.  Day in and day out something will crop up to make my life difficult.  I believed my cancer is now under control.  But to reach this stage I have to go through a string of treatment, injections, medication and change of medication.  My cancer will not kill me yet but the side effects will, or at least will cripple me 😄.  

   

I have been taking abiraterone for about 5 months after trying out Xtandi (enzalutamide) for about a year.  Abiraterone seem to be able to suppress my testosterone more effectively thus bringing down my PSA reading.  This is good news, BUT, the side effects are many.  The side effects of abiraterone, steroid plus low testosterone count really caused havoc to my daily life.  

Insomnia: Sleepless night is very common now.  

Diarrhea/constipation: Every few days I'll get diarrhea and then followed by constipation.

Blurry eyes: My eyes will blur after taking abiraterone and this can last half a day or the whole day.

Mood swing: I have mentioned about this earlier.  Yes this is horrible 😞

Body pain: I sometimes feel like 90 years old or older.  I can't stand, sit or walk for long - a few minutes and I'm exhausted.  I need to take my pain killer every day.

There are many other side effects which I have to deal with my own way.  I am writing all these "nonsense" just to ease my pressure, better than talking to family members who are very supportive. I don't want them to worry too much.