WHAM! you've got cancer!
Since April this year my stomach started to bloat. I went to the government hospital for a check-up and was told that it was acid reflux. The medications prescribed by the hospital do not seem to work and as time dragged on, my back started to hurt. I have to endure four months of pain which made lying down and getting up almost impossible without help from my wife. Since the government hospital's treatment is of no help and I had lost 7kg, I decided to go to a private specialist hospital to seek treatment.
After a few tests and a CT scan, the bad news awaited me. The doctor did not mince his words and told me I have CANCER. It is prostate cancer and it had spread to my lower back and ribs. It is at stage 4, advance stage.
OMG! My mind just went blank and I do not know what else the doctor was saying. My wife was in shock too when the doctor, who is not an oncologist, said I have to be admitted to a hospital immediately. Unfortunately this specialist hospital do not have an oncologist. There is no hospital with cancer facilities near where I stay. We decided to return home first and try to grasp the situation we are in.
My life just gone down the drain. It just do not make sense. How can this be when I maintain such healthy lifestyle. I do not have any sign of prostate problem. A week earlier I went for my annual blood test and the cancer marker showed negative.
Why me? Why me?
It is so scary. It's like we're in uncharted territory not knowing what to do. I cannot believe me having cancer? Why me? Why at this old age? I'm 70 and why rob me off the balance of my life? This is not fair. It is so difficult to accept this fact that I have cancer and a stage 4 cancer. Emotionally I cannot control myself and I cried and cried. Yes my wife is totally at a lost. She's devastated. Life is so cruel.
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My life just gone down the drain. It just do not make sense. How can this be when I maintain such healthy lifestyle. I do not have any sign of prostate problem. A week earlier I went for my annual blood test and the cancer marker showed negative.
Why me? Why me?
It is so scary. It's like we're in uncharted territory not knowing what to do. I cannot believe me having cancer? Why me? Why at this old age? I'm 70 and why rob me off the balance of my life? This is not fair. It is so difficult to accept this fact that I have cancer and a stage 4 cancer. Emotionally I cannot control myself and I cried and cried. Yes my wife is totally at a lost. She's devastated. Life is so cruel.
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I'm no longer lost. With such caring and good oncologist tending to hubby, we are determined to sail through the choppy water and to regain our happy and healthy life.
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